My mother walked into the gym, When were you going to tell me?
I continued to dance, attempting to ignore her, Tell you what,
Di?
She sighed, Allison abused you. I heard part of your conversation.
I was coming to check on you. I saw the scar. I saw what she did to
you.
I never wanted this to happen. My mother didnt need to know, but
it had already hit the fan. It was out of the bag, and believe me
when a cat gets out, youll get scratched trying to get it back in,
You have no idea.
I hadnt meant speak with such anger, but I was angry about it. My
mother should have known. She should have figured it out and made it
stop, You have no idea what Ive suffered. I knew a man in the
Biblical sense when I was seven-years-old. Do you know why this
happened? It is simply because Allison had a drug habit, and when she
got done sleeping with every man in the country, they would get bored
and come to me. I screamed, and you never heard me! I begged for you
to save me, and you never came! You are Wonder Woman, but you cant
save your own daughter!!!
I couldnt stop yelling even
though I saw the compassion and love in her eyes. I still hated her
for not helping me. She embraced me, pulling my close to her chest. I
screamed, hitting her with as much force as I could muster, Why
didnt you stop it? Why didnt you save me? Why dont you love
me? Am I so worthless? Im pathetic and hopeless. Im nothing.
Im ugly and clumsy. Im stupid and not worthy of anyones
love. Im worthless. I deserved it. I deserved my assault. I
deserved every hit, but I wanted it to stop.
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